Earth Song Description

I sit quietly on my bed, getting comfortable and relieved to be at rest, finally at the end of a long day. I simply savor the sensation of just being—not doing. I feel my body slowly, slowly relax. My head and shoulders are tense still, but I am ignoring them for the time being. I breathe deeply and slowly to slow my heartbeat and still myself. It is difficult to tune into the earth’s endless, deep song at first. It takes some time to simply let the tension of the long day go. Finally, I become aware of my heart beat and my breath. I concentrate on these sensations and attempt to let go of more tension. It is slow in going. I can hear my heart beating but faintly. I am listening as the assignment suggests, but it is taking a long time to fill the chambers of my mind. At last, I can hear it, still faint but getting louder. The rhythm is slowing and steadying but not filling my being totally. This difficult day is slow to leave me. I cannot fight this. Finally, I just accept the sensation as it is. I am not sure if the Earth Mother is with me or not but do not feel desperate for the connection to come. I am becoming more and more accepting of how things are manifesting at present. I feel that the world is flowing around me and carrying me on but am not afraid of where I am going. Eventually, the beating of my heart does become a sensation of totality. I can feel myself pulsating—vibrating with my heartbeat. Whether this is the earth or exhaustion, I cannot say for certain, only that I feel peaceful, l and that is enough. As I return to my more usual self and sensations, I can feel the beating and vibrating of my being receding into the background of my consciousness. I become aware of the sounds of living around me, my son and other people in the apartment building. It is dark and warm in my room, and I would love to sink into sleep but must get up and take up the chores of being a working parent. I am still tired but more peaceful. I am not sure if I am capable of truly connecting with the Earth Mother inside a building and in this particular place.